The song "Rise up" by Max Enforcer caught my attention, because of its lyrics:
"This" refers to the "rise up" to which you are called. If this rising up is:
If rising up is your sole redemption in this life, your upcoming death shows that you are without hope.
Your declaration is then a declaration of desperation: seeking to be persuaded about something you know is not true: like being drunk or high: living a lie, until truth takes hold.
And then what?
"And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment"